Thursday, 12 July 2007
A sad day=(
Nothing i do seems to b correct...a simple outing can turn out that im insensitive to one's feelings...can't help it but feeling utterly disappointed...no one likes to b e bad guy but y im kinda being forced to b one...does e problem realli lies w mi or there is some issue within...i dun wish anione to b unhappy but neither do i wan to b a wet blanket...well, mayb there is a solution to e problem, it is juz dat i hv yet to realize it rit...
Perhaps if grandpa is still ard, how good it would b...at least he will smile at mi n tell mi nt to b unhappy...i miss grandpa...today i juz went to grandma's hse, saw his n grandma's photo....suddenly pangs of sadness fall upon mi...it is my oni regret in life till now...i used to take things for granted, everything will b e same as b4...i nv realli cherish wat i used to hv until i lost it...grandpa left us, period...though it has been 3yrs alr but realli deep down, i still feel sad...i choose to believe that he is always ard us, at least i will b happier if i tink this way...thus i dun wan to hv ani more of such regrets....i realli wan to cherish things ard mi, be it frenz, family or r/s...i hv a bracelet given to mi by grandpa n grandma...though it has been cracked n mended using super glue for 2 times, i still refuse to throw it away coz dat is a memento, a memory dat was left behind...well mayb i should nt feel dat sad rit since at least i hv a memento frm grandpa
yes indeed, im blessed to hv frenz and family who will always b there for mi...but sometimes i wonder..do they realli understand mi? how i wish grandpa is still ard to offer mi his wrds of wisdom but i can't revert bk to b4..to e times where im truly happy...m i being too greedy...perhaps i should juz be contented w wat i hv coz indeed im much more fortunate than many others...
i noe every1 hv their own flaws too...but sometimes i do wish that pple can stand in others' shoes b4 making any comment...wrds once say cannt take bk...it hurts at times...is it coz i care too much abt how others feel than i neglect wat i realli feel n realli wan...COOL IT, yes i should do dat...coz i should tink 1st b4 i react so as nt to let my emotions get better of mi...
compared to e past, my laughter n smile has toned down...no longer im as happy-go-lucky gal as b4...n sooner or later, i will hv to bear up e responsibilities that dad n mum has been tirelessly shouldering...yup indeed, but isn't dat juz part of growing up...im sure im nt e oni one....
i dun wan to b unhappy...at least im trying...or m i trying too hard? how come when im sad, there isn't ani1 who can cheer mi up...when im frustrated, i can oni swallow all my unhappiness down e throat...is heaven trying to make a sport out of mi or is it trying to polish mi to b a better person...i hv no ans but i chose to tink it is e 2rd one...
i juz received an sms frm shuyu yest...she sd everything, any problems can be resolved, juz smile it off...thks galz...e msg comes at e right period of time...i will stay happy k, promise=)
i rem joseph once sd, juz look at e bright side of things n everything will turn out fine...so i try to tink positively (see those in bold)...indeed upon looking bk, it seems like e problem is nt great after all...i guess i will continue to tink this way...n perhaps, who knows this might b e secret success to hving a happier life...
Perhaps if grandpa is still ard, how good it would b...at least he will smile at mi n tell mi nt to b unhappy...i miss grandpa...today i juz went to grandma's hse, saw his n grandma's photo....suddenly pangs of sadness fall upon mi...it is my oni regret in life till now...i used to take things for granted, everything will b e same as b4...i nv realli cherish wat i used to hv until i lost it...grandpa left us, period...though it has been 3yrs alr but realli deep down, i still feel sad...i choose to believe that he is always ard us, at least i will b happier if i tink this way...thus i dun wan to hv ani more of such regrets....i realli wan to cherish things ard mi, be it frenz, family or r/s...i hv a bracelet given to mi by grandpa n grandma...though it has been cracked n mended using super glue for 2 times, i still refuse to throw it away coz dat is a memento, a memory dat was left behind...well mayb i should nt feel dat sad rit since at least i hv a memento frm grandpa
yes indeed, im blessed to hv frenz and family who will always b there for mi...but sometimes i wonder..do they realli understand mi? how i wish grandpa is still ard to offer mi his wrds of wisdom but i can't revert bk to b4..to e times where im truly happy...m i being too greedy...perhaps i should juz be contented w wat i hv coz indeed im much more fortunate than many others...
i noe every1 hv their own flaws too...but sometimes i do wish that pple can stand in others' shoes b4 making any comment...wrds once say cannt take bk...it hurts at times...is it coz i care too much abt how others feel than i neglect wat i realli feel n realli wan...COOL IT, yes i should do dat...coz i should tink 1st b4 i react so as nt to let my emotions get better of mi...
compared to e past, my laughter n smile has toned down...no longer im as happy-go-lucky gal as b4...n sooner or later, i will hv to bear up e responsibilities that dad n mum has been tirelessly shouldering...yup indeed, but isn't dat juz part of growing up...im sure im nt e oni one....
i dun wan to b unhappy...at least im trying...or m i trying too hard? how come when im sad, there isn't ani1 who can cheer mi up...when im frustrated, i can oni swallow all my unhappiness down e throat...is heaven trying to make a sport out of mi or is it trying to polish mi to b a better person...i hv no ans but i chose to tink it is e 2rd one...
i juz received an sms frm shuyu yest...she sd everything, any problems can be resolved, juz smile it off...thks galz...e msg comes at e right period of time...i will stay happy k, promise=)
i rem joseph once sd, juz look at e bright side of things n everything will turn out fine...so i try to tink positively (see those in bold)...indeed upon looking bk, it seems like e problem is nt great after all...i guess i will continue to tink this way...n perhaps, who knows this might b e secret success to hving a happier life...
i look upon the moon and stars at Thursday, July 12, 2007
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon