Wednesday, 2 April 2008

2rd April 2008

Came home today, hoping to get some rest and start revising for exams...got a bad news from dad, my uncle passed away...felt weird upon knowing it...perhaps it reminds of grandpa again...though uncle wasnt close to me at all, i hope my aunt and family will tide through it...e kind of sadness i hv experienced it, it is like u feel as if u cannot breathe...suddenly i regretted coming home so early coz i dun like this kind of atmosphere, e comfy feeling that used to be felt suddenly disappear...i din give ani reaction when dad told me e news...on e contrary, i was v calm and silent...i din noe how to react...perhaps in my heart, i know e best way is to let go...been through these for 3times...this will b e 4...

somehow, life is just fragile...to be frank, life and death is just part and puzzle...ask if im fearful of death...really, i am nt...i m just scared of suffering b4 i go to another part of this world, go and re-unite w grandpa...my family has a genetics of diabetes...and it is a v horrible illness which can cause u to go through a great deal of ordeal...grandpa-s and uncle went through it...i hate hospital, ICU brings me e creeps, esp NUH one...coz i lost my grandpa there...a world of regrets, so much things that i wanted to do and tell him, but sometimes pple hv to learn through e painful way b4 cherishing and appreciating...god-pa shld b up there w grandpa, mayb they r looking down at us, blessing all of us...though they r nt ard animore, their spirit stays w us eva...

right now, i dunno wat to say but words of consolesence for my aunt and cousins...uncle alr tried to fight e battle...but some things r just pre-destined...
i look upon the moon and stars at Wednesday, April 02, 2008
1 stars were shining bright even without the moon